Scarce Identity: The Purple Side

Scarce Identity: The Purple Side

d2ec576031cfa11b906fc4802eb54c13I wouldn’t say this is a Prince tribute, but between his continuation and reading Frank Ocean’s tribute post on Tumblr, it encouraged me reveal a few passing thoughts.  Since Prince unforeseen move, there is a plethora of articles, think-pieces, opinion post about his non-conforming identity as a black male.  Frank Ocean alluded to this throughout his entry,”He was a straight black male who played his first televised set with bikini bottoms and knee high heeled boots.” Prince even eased Franks own self awareness when he said, “He made me more comfortable with how I identify sexually.” Now, not to be all in the mix, but we know exactly how that went down when he pulled that New York style butch-queen stunt right before releasing his debut album. Thus, collecting his coin from the gays dashing away into the mysterious leaving his fans and the newly gay fans for dry. Hopefully, Prince didn’t teach him how to Forest Gump…I digress, though. Prince own morals permeated the lives of many in the idea of self expression. However in my coming of age when sexuality and masculinity becomes the point in question out of every pubescent’s mouth, my inner thoughts always asked how can they respect his expression and not mine?

The high heeled purple spirit in bell bottoms, hip hugging jump suits, and Halle Berry short cuts was not around when I had to prove my manhood. He was before my time musically. The only time I would see him would be flashbacks shown on MTV some random Saturday afternoon. In those moments when he is wearing one his iconic flamboyant attires, I am thirteen trying to put him in a category as many currently did to me. Is he gay? What is he? People are allowing him to do these things? Boys can wear heels, since when? What seems to be homophobic questions from a sassy kid himself, were nothing more than inquisitions trying alleviate the suppression I put on myself.  I had to be meticulous in the way that I speak, dress, and act. Picking the tone in my voice and the way my hands move about with my words was a process as delicate as plucking petals. I was poor at suppressing those categories, but in how I dress I had no control over and Prince’s tight assembles were in contrast to the standard black male uniform of oversize everything. I had no celebrity hero that was equally accepted into the straight community and LGBTQ+ community as flagrant as Prince. No safe haven for me to conceal behind or vicariously live through. Either way, people loved him for his mystery while in the same breath try to breakdown what they couldn’t understand in me and people alike, even my mother.

My dad thought he dressed a little too feminine for his taste, my mother loved his music, Daily News front cover is of him with his legs crossed in his legendary heeled boots calling him “Sexy” While I struggle to put on leg warmers in hopes that I won’t get menacing looks and sarcastic questions at the age of 23. Do you see where I’m going with this? What partitioned him from me, what made his being acceptable and praised and not the tone of my voice, or the fit of my clothes, my proper dialect,  the glide in my step, my interest in things feminine? Something as simple as going out with leg warmers on a brutally cold New York winter day was an audacious task. the alarming feeling of fear heating my chest, sitting in the back of my throat as I timidly decide if I should place my jeans over them or not. Would I get looks and sly comments? What would my coworkers think? Would my mom question my gender for the hundredth time as she did when I accidentally left foundation in the bathroom? Is it going to bring unwarranted attention? I went ahead and placed them over my knee after drilling to myself, “Don’t matter who says what to you, you bought it, you like it, it’s cold, wear it.” Then someone later asks, “What is that on your legs,” when clearly it is obvious. “Don’t girls wear that for dance?”  Although my sarcastic responses were so keenly sharp with shade, deep down I felt like I called it upon myself.

prince-08  In trying to decipher it all between him and I and others alike, I came up with the idea that Prince gave the straight community something to look past his gender fluidity: His music. As long as you give them something to look past you will be okay. Got to have that something else that will be big enough to water down their ignorance. You can’t just be a regular feminine black male. You need a superior talent. One can express freely as long as you can slay a weave, design their home, shady humor, make them best dressed at the Grammy’s, and write the best gossip column. Or in another case, sleep solely with women. That way the determining factor, who one lays down in bed with, will decide the likeliness of positive receptivity. A women can listen to Prince and wish to sleep with him, while a male can do the same and assume his lyrics are about females and feel comfortable singing them. There shouldn’t be a pass for Prince in heels and a guitar while men like E.J. Johnson; Magic Johnson son, is chastised. Along with  Miss Lawrence and Derek J being slandered because of  who they sleep with is the determining factor of acceptance.

This isn’t about Prince. This is me trying to understand my self identity through him and question why society accepted him and cannot accept  me and others alike. No, I’m not crying out to wear heels. However, like Prince, he was an unapologetic spirit. I need to be that. Part of me is still healing from the past wounds as it still plays a part in how fully self express today. Part of me needs approval. I am working on that, I know I don’t need it. I don’t need Kid Cudi and Will Smith to make it okay for me to wear a crop top or Jaden Smith to pick a shirt from the girls section. I don’t need a rapper to be dressed in all pink for me to wear pink. I don’t need a straight male or women to vogue in order for me feel comfortable voguing in public. I don’t need Tank making a video about his salad being tossed for me to toss mine with organic toppings. I don’t need an presumably straight male to approve my fluid expression, my feminine side of a young black man. It’s the unwavering confidence in my self expression I am perfecting. Thanks Prince!

 

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#Infinity Shades Of Mariah Carey

Mariah Carey

The five octave paramount diva with 18 #1’s from ”Vision of Love” to “Touch My Body”. The voice that conducted your soul into a catalepsy spell like the musician magician she is…MARIAH CAREY!

Name hold weight like kilos, Boy you acting so corny like fritos, wouldn’t have none of that without me though, it’s none of my business it’s tea though

Already Trending on twitter, Mariah Carey dropped her newest Single “Infinity” 12:01 April 27 on Itunes, Youtube, Spotify, Amazon, and Google. It’s not a surprise to me as facebook group of Lambs and I have been anticipating this single to be drop for weeks. Updates after updates with only taste of reviews from privilege DJ’s.

If life was a game you’re a free throw

Critics are saying this is the 90’s throwback they have been waiting for from Mariah as her last two previous albums, end of marriage, and flawed performances have continuously fueled doubts that Mariah Carey is finished!  See, what happens is, once many starts doubts the best selling female artist in 20 years, she seize the girls again and again and again with her breathy vocals, classic belts and culminating songwriting! Especially now that she is back With L.A. Reid and Epic/Sony records, Mariah Is back home Lambs and already storming!

Close the door loose the key leave my heart on the mat for me. I was yours eternally, there’s an end to infinity.

Mariah Carey Single is the 19th song on her up and coming Hit’s album #1 to Infinity updated with all of her 18 #1 hits set to release May 18th while also jump starting her  Las Vegas tour at The Colosseum at Caesars Palace. Here she will let her voice time travel us back into the times of “Dreamlover”, “Hero”, and “We Belong Together” with  the newly single “Infinity”

Why you tryin to play like your so grown. Everything you own boy you still owe

Is it about Nick Cannon? I doubt it, but if so, this lady damn sure knows how to break-up the right way! Watch the Lyric video below and listen to her story of made up dreams ending unfold.

Mike Huckabee, Shut The Fuck Up!

Mike Huckabee, Shut The Fuck Up!

Mind your own business…

Arkansas Republican Mike Huckabee decided to add his two sense about Michelle Obama allowing her daughters to listen to Beyonce. In an interview about his new book “God, Guns, Grits and Gravy” with People magazine he states the following:

 

“That’s the whole point. I don’t understand how on one hand they can be such doting parents and so careful about the intake of everything – how much broccoli they eat and where they go to school and making sure they’re kind of sheltered and shielded from so many things – and yet they don’t see anything that might not be suitable for either a preteen or a teen in some of the lyrical content and choreography of Beyoncé

 

Mr. He-needs-to-mind-his-business Huckabee displays more of his irrelevant ass on music by explaining how Jay-z, the music mogul, exploits and pimps his wife, Beyonce in his book. His book apparently is about the social influences and relationship between the three heads of our nation, the government; Washington, D.C., Money; New York City; and entertainment; Hollywood.

 

“She has an exceptional set of pipes and can actually sing. She is a terrific dancer – without the explicit moves best left for the privacy of her bedroom. Jay Z is a very shrewd businessman, but I wonder: does it occur to him that he is arguably crossing the line from husband to pimp by exploiting his wife as a sex object?”

I don’t give a Times Square rats ass about his damn opinion about subjects that is out of his job description. Why is this even such a major concern to him? Worry about raising your own kids and sheltering your own kids so you can further keep them ignorant to the world. Shelter your own kids with your bigot ass opinions ruining their free thinking. I am glad Michelle Obama did not comment on his catty statements. There are many things to worry about ie: Nigeria massacre, NAACP bombing, Police Brutality and more. These politicians never want to concern about the greater good of the people and fix the foundation of home which they are trying to run. It’s pure comedy and popularity.

“I’ve seen dusty pickup truck windshields that were less see-through. – Mike Huckabee

 

 

If the first lady wants to let her daughters embrace their own dark people and music, then so be it!Seeing Beyonce’s Drunk In Love performance is not going to have their girls on the couch twerking screaming Trap House and Daquan. That’s the problem again. These people are always biting the hands that feed them all the time, in other words,  they profit from our creation and then slander in the same breathe. It’s psychotic. I don’t mean to sound racially charged either, however, what I am saying rings some truth.

Mind your damn business Huckabilly, and stop hating on Michelle parenting. I hope his book does well. He just have a lot of nerve and audacity to come for Michelle Obama, Jay-Z, and Beyonce. Oh, and lets not forget what he said about Rihanna and her see through dress, “I’ve seen dusty pickup truck windshields that were less see-through.” I have to admit that was funny. Actually, it was hilarious! He still an asswhole though his comments.

These Great Plains roaming, mountain living, desert camping, ignorant Republicans gets on my last nerves. And who the hell puts God and Guns in the same sentence along with Grits and Gravy? The fuck he know about Grits and Gravy? And yes, I did purposely pic pictures of Beyonce and Michelle Obama looking unbothered and immaculate in a similar black and white photo with Mike Huckabee looking grumpy and pressed in color. Petty…indeed.

Read the article by People Here

WordPress Overload

I want some help here. I am curious to know how does one manage the posts of over several thousand people. If the point is to engage with other publishers on WordPress and build a community, how do you engage with such mass?

If let’s say everybody is a frequent poster. If everybody is busy posting who is left to read? And if, we post too frequently is our content actually valued properly?

Similar how Rihanna drops single and albums like panties thrown to Elvis, her songs are frequent but they don’t last through time. Her songs like most artist today, is only for the times. Spiritually speaking these artist are very “present” and in the moment, don’t lager worrying about the future.

But scratch that! Reading blogs requires time and effort and its very time consuming as it requires time and effort. (Yes, I purposely rephrased within a sentence.) I want to know how so you manage your feeds. Do you read a blog a day? Do you spend time reading blogs only for one day? I was thinking maybe posting once a week. Then, all the other days I will take time and read and engage. It sounds like a chore now that I am thinking about it, but it is fair if you want  your voice herd.

I’m asking this because there’s a blog that I follow with 42,000 followers. One of his many tips is to post frequently. Which is not a hard thing to do, but this is not Facebook or twitter. I care about my content here much more than those other outlets. This is why I choose to not post about pop culture. That is so cliche. I like reading about real live experiences past present or future. I like read and feel another human through words.

Anyways, how do you view your feed? Do you post only? Comment rarely?

Also, how do you pick who you follow? Do you follow any and everybody ?

Daily prompt : Overload alert