It’s been a long time since I blog something. I had strong intentions to update frequently everyday, but as I can see it ain’t happening. I am not sure if it is pure laziness, procrastination, or simply uninspired. I would awaken and remind myself to update my blog, but when it get time to write it feels forced, I’m tired, I don’t know what to write about. The whole nine.
I also had plans to utilize my time more constructively. The idea to at least wake up at 6 am to give myself ample time to do a little squats, stretch, meditate, blog and then start my day. I typically wake up at 10 am and I don’t go to sleep until about 2-3. When I get home I want to relax but I am compelled to handle my responsibilities like homework. The universe knows how I deplore homework. I find my self not doing anything by laying down scrolling through Facebook and Tumblr.
I made an attempt on my memoir too, however, I stopped after a day because I felt like I should be doing more appropriate things like school work, but I don’t want to do school work, so I don’t feel the right to do my memoir. It kinda like if punishing yourself. It’s like I know I’m suppose to do something and I shouldn’t be doing other things that is not important…so I do nothing instead.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me in a humorous way. I figure I should just say what I want to do and do it rather just not do anything and complain on what I want to do. At the end of the day I am only stopping me. I just wish I had the full drive. I lack much enthusiasm. Surprisingly, I though my peers see a lot of potential in me.
Which is restored energy…
It’s very uplifting to know people see me going places.
Because, I haven’t see it.
I digress. I will attempt to update more, again. It’s just that I have so much on my plate and everything seems like a chore.
The wonder years of childhood!