Teach yourself, To Then Teach Your Kids

I am re-reading a wonderful book for probably the third time called
Outwitting The Devil  by Napoleon Hill, famous author of Think Grow Rich

It a book describing the experience Mr. Hill had explaining his contact with the devil. This book was originally written in 1938, but was not published until 2011

Whether you believe the content of the this interview styled book to be true or not.
You cannot deny the extreme truth soundness of the content.

I do want to quote a sections that explains things to better children to become achievers and not be swindling by the workings of the “Devil” which its just everything negative down to the negative particle of an atom so to speak.

-Teach the students how to budget and use time, and above all teach the truth that time is the greatest asset available to human beings and the cheapest.
-Teach children what to eat, how much to eat, and what is the relationship between proper eating and sound health.
-Teach children to be definite in all things, beginning with the choice of a definite major purpose in life!
- Teach children the nature and the value of self-control.
- Teach children not to have opinions unless they are formed from facts or beliefs which may reasonable be accepted as facts. Teach children that cigarettes, liquor, narcotics, and overindulgence in sex destroy the power of will and lead to the habit of drifting. Do not forbid these evils-just explain them.
- Teach children the danger of believing anything merely because their, parents, religious instructors, or someone else says it is so.
- Teach children to be true to themselves at all times and, since they cannot please everybody, therefore to do a good job of pleasing themselves.

This book has way more inquisitive meaning life learned lesson to take with you. I love this book, pretty much my bible!

I really recommend it!   


Conversation with my self

I broke into a conversation with myself in regards to Loverboy and this is how it went.

Do you want yall to be together ?
    I do😶. I just want us to not be as were before.

Then what do you want ?
    I wanted to shift the method in which our relationship ran. In other words, I wanted us to be more in harminous. Well I wanted him included in the things I do. I didn’t want to feel so disconnected with him through a strong seperation of our social life’s. My social life no matter how unstable is part of my life. A huge part.

What do I want from him specifically?
         I wanted him to tell me often how I made him feel. I wanted him to emotionally let me know where I stand. Especially, after I do something nice. At least out weigh the drama. I still want to be told I’m cute and handsome randomly as reassurance. I would just assume these things…which to me is not fruitful if I’m telling myself these things. I did somehow want him to be superman. To take charge and lead and I follow 💪. To take my places of his choice. To demand to see me. I want to ride the wave of him for a while. And more tongue kisses waaaaaaay more 👅💋. Less loose loose situations. :|

What could have you changed about yourself if you had the power to?
       Maybe to be more verbal. For someone who knows how to talk for hours I didn’t execute it as well as I should.  Together we were fine. Perfect really. But once we are away from each other…lord! Explosions.

Why do you think that ?
        Well it was the level of common interest. We came from two different worlds honestly. He was interested in a few things that I’m not. Most of those times with I speak a ton and one things I do it to those who I share common interest with which is very slim to one or two other people who  am socially involved with. I have tried but the engagement or depth of the conversations thats not really of interest wouldn’t go as far. Which is common in general. Our conversations would, to me, sound like me speaking all one experience once done. Other would change the subject To their experience and we flip flop. Not much full dept conversations that ignites the both of us deeply when away from each other. We did have a few success when not texting….actually texting could’ve been the #1 downfall. Too much Morse code not enough human connectionism when away from each other. Could explain these issues when only away.

What were the good times
      The times when I was with him and nothing else existed. Not my job, not some ball event, home stress, life stress, everything. He was my home away from home. My vacation. My comfort zone. My home again😁. Love dome.  I love the trips to the pier, the elaborate dates usually my ideas 🙌. I take pride in that. But mostly when I’m laying down with him. When I make him laugh. Our hotel night.  Any time when most intimate and most laughing.

If he were to read this what would you want him to get out of this?
       To understand. To understand me on a deeper level nothing surfaced on my actions and emotions only.  To know how much I do love him. I still believe all relationships can be fixed I think its takes work a lot of work. Sometimes you need time to focus attention on you then come back together. Our relationship is very unique. Its not perfect and I’m glad its not. I wish we would take what we learned from our experiences together to better each other and not someone else. Our lessons are for us really. If we were to carry out some lessons it can come off as baggage for the next. This could be similar to the saying “failure with it carries a seed equivalent to success” by the famous Napoleon Hill. If your faults are failures maybe the lessons from them can help me and him grow. That’s all that were doing…just growing.

Why dont you let him go?
       I always feel like there’s a way. We were together for reason. If two people want the best then it will happen. We have more control then we think. Its just about perspective. Its possible to be the best for each other. I don’t believe in. Just cause we in love don’t we have to be together. It think its a common dogma of nonsense. A scapegoat sentence used to give leeway to quit. I know he still wants me and love me. Just not at this moment.

What do you plan to do now at this state?
           Wait and see what he wants for sure. then slowly rebuild the foundation wiser and better. Like the fall of the great cities. Just instead of building around the ruins we clear and make way for new pavement and start anew.

Cookie Beauty Secrets

PingBack:”Object Lesson”
If we asked your friends what object they most immediately associate with you, what would they answer?

Would you call this an object though? if or if not who cares, my friends know I love adore and crave a nice soft, delectable, raisin, plumped, Quaker oaty, crumby, flavorful, hot, mellow in a sunshine making,  tantalizing  taste buds igniting, smooth, tangy, first kiss feeling, real love making, steamy sex filled summer night under the stars having, bone chilling to the skin crawling, chills making with zesty round of holy grail goodness licking oatmeal cookies.

I don’t know why, I don’t know when I found my first love bit I did and we been married every since.
but first, I must tell you guys how to eat an Oatmeal Cookie Properly to ensure you have the full life changing experience I have when I eat my gender-less husband. 

Step 1 – Buy The Right Cookie 
It’s very important where you want to pick out your cookie for a taste in marriage. You cant just walk the isle of any supermarket ( church) and believe every cookie is ready for this arrangement. I would like to recommend Subway’s oatmeal cookies or even Mc Donalds for a number of reason…mainly because of …QUALITY!  You want to make sure the raisins are VISIBLE. As seen in the image across you can see the plump raisin reassuring the quality of the cookie. You want to make sure the cookie is soft to chew. We are not eating ginger snaps. Your cookie should NOT be snap crackling and popping. That is diffinitely the WRONG cookie of choice. 

Step 2 – Split The Cookie In Half
You want beauty, you want the secret, you want real love? Well split the cookie in half to  release the micro atoms in the cookie that will regenerate you skin on a cellular level.  You want to eat split the cookie every chance you get in half, then again in fourths this will certain give you that flawless skin and can look like your favorite movie star! Plus do this process very slowly to ensure precision. Be as neat as possible so when it is time to chow down you have more pieces to savor the taste in.



Step 3 – Eat it

          You want to look my mentor below. This is how you eat a cookie. You gobble it up like a vacuum cleaner. You have to make lots of grunts and good tasting noise so other people and know what you are eating. It’s great forms of advertisements! 


    That’s all for now, hope you guys eat your cookie correctly. You can purchase them at your nearest store around you. For more Information  call me at (1-800-Iove-cookies so much-that-it-changed-my-life-forever)

Organized Religion

Do you like organized religion?

My journey through spirituality has been a continuous one around 2010 through growing close to a devoted Christian. Well two friends actually were great influences on my Christianity.

Merely, cause at the time I was trying to find myself a little more deeply and thought why not give this a chance. See, religion wasn’t so strict in my house growing up. Yes we celebrated easter the urban way buy getting new clothes, also Xmas. We never really went to church regularly and quite frankly I’m glad we didn’t. We did do bible study though for a short period of time.

Naturally because of my sexuality I always felt severed from religion because of the outpour of hate. Which to me hate is hate, hate feels like hate in your chest and emotions. and hate is no different from any other hate. Anyways, I, however, also feel separated from the stories in the bible. It seems like all the main heroes on the story had this amazing gift to speak to God and have this divine connection even speak to angels. I wanted to feel as special and connected to God as all the characters in the bible. Can at least speak in tongue and experience the very essence of the holy spirit.

I would look around me and through experience I never saw anymore of these heroes created after the bible. So I thought why did the bible and its stories end? Are there no more heroes to be made to save us from economic slavery, what about  U.S. slavery in the 1800′s who was the great moses of that time? Even the Holocaust.  There were no religious supermans created like Noah and moses and more?

I would read the bible and get lost in translation. I saw nothing but a set of rule books that represented that period and point of time. At church service I was in love with the music and live bands and the promotion of happiness to some degree. I never understood the need to donate money. And I never understood the speaking in tongue experience which further made me felt unworthy

The unworthy feeling crept as I read more into religion. Then came the connections of organized religion.
Why are they’re so many domininations of Christianity that selectively chooses to teach what they want. On top of not agree with another form of belief in its same sector like Catholics and Judaism.

I didn’t like the ideal of blind faith because its what’s caused the destructions of many people and the foundations of the tragic horrors people use from manipulation. You can’t disprove an opinion and people have used and exploited “God” because its a subjective term than can and is a motive behind everything right or wrong.

I cannot fight against someone saying. “I got a calling from God, he spoke to me and told me to invade Manhattan” it’s impossible.

So I gave up and started to venture off to spirituality and realized in was getting better reaults as far as connections with the higher intelligence then organized religion.

I learned to love myself, nourish my body, pray positively, I felt free from any constrictions. No demanding tithes or hateful slurs. I didn’t feel guilty and unworthy for being who I am. I seen it as the original of all religion. The practice of love and oneness with all.

Astronauts get the same awakening experience when flying out of space and look back at whole world. Its a since of feeling that we are all one. Not that selective people are going to heaven. Not who is going to hell. Not, the lack of free thinking and individuality while still maintaining a sense of togetherness. Not this religion is faker and we should kill them for not believing what I do. Not promoting fear.

I am not against religion. I am against religious insititutions it goes against the purpose of religion. We are humans of free will and thought with the ability to create. We are creators like the divine. Anything that prohibits our very nature of free thought into someone else thought is rather a strong control. I dont wanted to be controlled.

I want to love and be free in me.

Plus I scene the destruction of these institutions and it’s very very long history of havoc even today. You won’t get that from the monks,gurus and even ghandi.

Surprisingly, our founding fathers were not of any religion. They believed in the higher power not a religious God. They also believed you get closer to “God” by understanding nature and its laws. This is called deitsim as they came from the Age Of Reason.

So, how do you feel about organized religion

Eat Yourself To Death

So were pretty much all drug addicts to some degree. Instead we are not sniffing white powder or sharing needles

We are eating it and its okay! Since it is all in the name of profit.

I really want to fixate my lifestyle to a more health independent style of living. We are so far off disharmonious with humanity and nature it’s the main reason for primarily in my opinion 99% of our issues. I blame the necessary game of Capitalism. The need to always in a sense maximize your profits. This without a doubt creates the need to drive the self-ego so high it becomes destructive from take any means necessary to be on top. 

tumblr_myye37qYif1toiuoco1_500This than sparked my new perspective on part of the world today and why its so hard to live a positive well filled life we were meant to live.

After watching a ton and one documentaries about things that run America ( Business, Politics, Money)  I started to how everything is connected with the issues we have today down the individual.

More and more and more It leads to the top of  Billion dollar corporate business’s


To keep the body in good health is a duty… otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear. – Buddah

Food industries and drugs industries go hand and hand with even more hands on the political influence that regulates them. Food companies make profit of people that they can make addicted to it. So food industries, with the dogma of getting the most profit off the lowest production value possible create these dead foods that lack substantial amount of its natural nutrition through it being processed and drench in tons of additives!

common sense once your body lacks nutrition you can get sick, plus the known dangerous chemicals added to the food like (dye, aspartame, corn syrup)  enhance other health problems.

What happens when you get sick ?

You run to the drug companies and pay a fortune that is suppose to Aide to your health, but does it? No, well not in the risk of thousands of other complication the drug can cause in you alone.
so to aid the complication of a headache from eating MC Donald’s, you add aspirin to the mix on top of the thousands of chemicals added to your foods. You body is on a consistent under attack! 

Now with these companies with these billions of dollars sponsor politicians with paid persuaders called “Lobbyist” to push regulations that bet suits them. Consumer corps do the same thing, as well as banks. Especially during these presidential elections, if you took the time to research which big banks sponsored these presidents as well as drug companies,  You will be in awe! as I was 




Drugs industries make money of people that are sick. Each pill taken is equated to a certain amount of money that can be profit off a person. Do you really think that these Donation companies are looking for a direct cure? No companies are not going to cure, with a pill, a disease that they are making billions and billions of dollars off of. They will however make a strong of pill that can lets say kill 99.99% of disease and tell you to take one strong pill a day for the rest of your life. A lifetime customer guaranteed! 

Like Lysol, I always questions why don’t they kill all 100% of the bacteria, Well, if they did there would be no need to buy another Lysol and the business will run out of profit. that 00.01% bacteria can reproduce and then Hey! time to buy more.

I don’t want to sound Hippie-like but getting in touch with our origin would better soothe us then some next man. Nature seems to take care well of every other species except for us. Humans and their ego thinking we can survive on our own and we cant.

Man made food are destructive, as well as man made health !  

Its like a negative seed that grows with the help of negative charged water, to  water a negative plan with positively charged water it will die.

and that how I see these corporations. As for ever time someone wants to do good that threatnes their profits they come and swipe them away with these regulations that suits processed food companies only, were we as consumers loose the full right to eat healthy

but we can splurge on MC Donald 24/7

I sometimes break these effects down to a human cognitive

I steal food because I don’t’ have food,  I don’t have food because I cant afford, I cant afford 549f708772d87741b65ddab0f652b6fdbecause I don’t make enough money, I don’t make enough money because wages are stagnant, stagnant wages inconsistent with inflation risen, inflation rise etc etc !

The Top 1 % that are in america control the flow of money, but if the flow of money is a full cycle of negativity, everything that building out of money will be negative because the meaning and core of money in itself aid to selfishness of these business owners and the constitutions protecting government complete control and regulation for the people, because they billion dollar companies influence the political structure.

Sit down and think about it and wonder why things the way they are and slowly as I am you would see clearly why.  

Just educate yourself, Do be so dependent on companies with these “experts” We do not know more than nature and the thought that we do is why we are in this disharmonious cycle 

If you have Netflix WATCH!
Hunger for change
Food Matters
Food Inc
Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead 

Read :Cures they don’t know you to know by Kevin Trudeau 

Knowledge Binge

I don’t know what but I have this sudden urge to marvel in information like American history, My culture, government, Religion, astrology…

I been watching many documentaries from food corps to the Mayan culture and in between.

I am just learning so much and thrilled as to why things the way they are today, which I’m glad because it’s pulling me away from watching Facebook all day. I am doing something  productive and its inspiring me to think  and write.

So I ask you guys, what are you currently marveling in? Whether it be a Games, t.v. show, music artist what ever ?

I feel like the more I know about but he truth the better chance I have of guidance to gear my future children in the real ways of the world that school wouldn’t dare to mention.

Frames of Race

What is race?

I know it doesn’t exist well, to be correct in our current state it does . Race is as fabricated as the meaning of money. And took its own life, so intricately designed, embedded deeply into the minds of a group and country it has manifested into a way of life. A way of life I choose to not follow. A way of life I am constitently being subjected to, judged, and penalized for; and no I’m not talking about racism

But what is race? Its pretty much the physical separateness of humans. There are Caucasians, Blacks, and Mongolians all three divided by the genetic appearance from the color of eyes, the width of the nose, and cheek bones etc. 

Race differentiate from ethnicity. Ethnicity classifies people according to region. For an example, cacausian is the race but Italian, Greek, European is the ethinicty. 

I’m explaining this because I am disappointed in my “race” I blame them for repeatedly falling into the negative portrayals of us and exploiting no better than those being oppressors. We are doing the job for them very well. However I cannot fully blame for thilese behaviors have been conditioned so elaborately well, we would see the signs. Like picking up a black doll with no acessories costing the same price as the other well equip dolls. Or the message of advertisements on baby holders with a single black mother, next to the same advertisements with a mom & dad. 

Its time to stop blaming “them” for the issues now because we had enough social justices to help us grow on our own. We as a “race” predominantly choose to fall in submission and I believe this so through the popularity of demeaning outlets like WorldStarHipHop. Its what I call Ghetto YouTube because its show enormous amounts of blacks further lowering themselves threw fights, agreed upon ignorance, and sexual exploitation.

We are not together as we once was before because the factor that kept blacks united was hardships implemented on us. Shit, we was better off with no laws and segregation if segregation is was what actually kept us blacks together as a community. We had culture and independence. We had unity and structure all because of the factors that “prohibited” us. Another example is my family, we had undergo a lot of hardships with living a alcoholic father. Although it was extremely traumatizing my mother brother and I were much close. Now that the factor of my father which was negative glue to the family has dispersed we are not close anymore. This can apply to any situation that acts like a gluebwether negative or positive. One the factor the lead to a unionship is gone either another has to be made or forever it will be separated. So there’s no need for the black panthers, the symbol of our first. The pride in our hair. The colors of our flag.

For we are afraid to say black. We have to be mixed with someone to compensate for the failure of the race. So its never I’m black or “african-american” it’s Jamaican mix with Indian and other concoctions.

You don’t hear other saying I’m euro-american. We are american and that’s that. Oversees people sees us as just that american. Not every other race mixture. You are were you are from and the denial is the divison that plaques my “race”

As of now, blacks are separate from each other. Oppression, propaganda, ignorance, and insecurities (O.P.I.I.)  frame makeup of this race and in it breeds the destruction and outcome of what we see from black on black crimes, to hyper masculinity, colorism and on. 

I seen a black male repeatedly bash another male of sneakers he thought someone stole from him. The abuser stole his shoes right from him on camera. His the aggressors friends laugh and joked and scream “worldstar” throwing up signs as the beatened boy wobbles with a bloody face. Immense hatred displayed to ourselves. To later find out the mother was able to show receipt that her now brutally damaged son paid for the shoes he wore.

This what is been exploited and profited of my race because we choose by free will to continuously act irrational. We already have enough media showing nothing but horrible representation of us in every way possible. Because of sites like World Star we as a race can further more exploit ourselves in a bad way. Like handing drugs to an addict for the hell of it….well for money. 

It’s racial suicide.

It infuriates me to rarely see anything positive go on in my alleged race. What was the point of fight for a spot in America to not have respect.

Its time to stop blaming others and blame ourselves as a whole, as one, as a union.

Change will come. When its in dire need. When change is necessary and only way to survive.

…And so I wait.


Frame of mind